Starting out and what really doesn't matter!

Did you notice I have capitalized random words on this page. Maybe you noticed that I spelled Armour with a u, the British spelling? (a hold over from my early education in Africa) Well, My husband pointed it out immediately. Before I started having Chronic pain, this would have bothered me and been immediately corrected. Now, I don't care. So what? So it will probably always be there. I've rearranged my priorities, and getting every thing right is no longer one of those top priorities. Pain will do that to you. Age will sometimes do that to you as well I think. Have you ever had your child ask you, "You are not going out like that are you?" I'm not a slouch, I do care about how I look, but I'm obviously not always up to snuff.  If you pay close attention to me, you can probably begin to figure out how high my pain is or at least how well I'm managing it by how I appear in public. Are my clothes nicely ironed, coordinated and matched with appropriate footwear? Then Its a pretty good day. Are my clothes comfy looking but a bit crumpled, maybe have a recent coffee stain on the front of my shirt, and paired with my old tennis shoes? Then most likely I'm not doing that good, despite the smile on my face. Now if I show up in my fuzzy red crocks that are 2 sizes too big and are half chewed up by my beagle, then its probably a really bad day! Believe me, It happens!!

I titled my blog "Living Life in a suit of Armour" because that is what it feels like to live with chronic pain. Its weighty and uncomfortable, makes it hard to move, and it makes you feel very unpretty!! Ok, so my spell checker says that unpretty isn't a word. Well it is now. Wearing this suit of armour is for the birds, but it has developed me into a much stronger, compassionate, empathetic person than I would have been if I had never had it placed on me. I hope to share here, some of those strengthening moments, some of those overwhelming moments, and most of all, How God is using even this to bring Him glory.